With the best of intentions, here we are, throwback 2004 LiveJournal style.

  • Last fern of winter

I’d rather plan something than do it. I’ve always loved theory and reveled in the research, discovery and rumination over the smallest of details only to deflate to collapse on execution. It’s devastating to look back on this as my legacy. Even more devastating to watch as long term partners get hip to the twist and start shrugging off any glimmer of a new idea escaping from me. What’s wrong with just diving into the excitement of a new direction? Probably a lot.

Is it just procrastination? Lack of grit? How about an uncompromising willingness to accept feelings of discouragement as tangible defeat?

What do I lean into if I ever want to move forward with some follow through on a road with bumps or discomfort? It is The New Year and I am in a New House. Are you ready to hear all of the ambitions that come with these two things? My plan is to gather a small curated collection of wins while cataloging what I worked through; what worked well to make it actually workout when things did end up working. Seems like it is mostly others, or having others in tow, that helps me show up consistently. If it’s just me then yeah I have goals, but also, you know, what about that small town teen drama tv show. It’s not going to watch itself. 
The Modest Quest: One post per week with at least one photo – a little style to regain style, as years without trying to capture anything has diminished my eye. And when I sheepishly look back at time wasted, the hope is that I will more readily see what else there was to the year. Fifty two entries doesn’t feel overwhelming right now, but then again, the planning is always the party.